Hello, air

I doubt anyone will ever read this.  Gosh, that's become like a battle cry....  But this time I don't really care.  It's just a fact of life...

I want to continue that sentence:

it's just a fact of life... that I'm sinking into mediocrity.  

But that's not what it is.  

There's this one song that goes 

"we were meant to live for so much more/

but we lost ourselves/

somewhere we live inside..."

People settle for less way too often.  

But other times, people get disappointed when the best doesn't come.

Maybe it's that people expect too much from other people.  We're all just human, and we're not the larger-than-life, idealized One who you've been waiting for to come around and sweep you off your feet!  

But once people have disappointed us so often, we get used to it, and stop even asking for anything more.  Because while other people won't (can't) give us anything more than they are capable, God is capable of More.  And He so wants to give it to us!  But we just sit there looking at the people across the room from us and waiting for them to cross that room and fulfill our dreams, when the Only One who really can is just in the other direction.

Once I remember crying out to Jesus, "have You ever felt this?" 

But He has.  

Just picture Him, standing there, with His arms out, and He's standing there saying,

"Look, McKenzie!  It's Me!" but He has tears running down His face because I rejected Him.  So many times I turn my back and run off to another party, waiting for just another "friend" to- I don't even know what I'm waiting for.  But Jesus does, and He's the only one who can provide it, and I have abandoned Him in search for it.  

Good

Night

God

Bless

Kenzer 

Lou